I need to …
Read more, talk less.
Yell less, laugh more.
Eat more fruit, and less chocolate.
Drink less coffee, and more water.
Do more yoga, give less excuses.
Stay up late less, and sleep more.
Give more grace, and less judgment.
A little less cleaning won’t kill me, so have more fun doing nothing.
Smile more, frown less.
Spend less time on Facebook, and more time on writing.
Take more pictures of everything, and less of…. well, nothing.
Wear less black, incorporate more color.
Try more new things, rely less on what’s old and comfortable.
Since my littlest started school this month, I’ve had five mornings to myself. Nearly 4 hours to do whatever I want. You’d think that I would have lined up allthethings I’ve been dreaming of doing, since this is the first time in nearly 4 years that I actually can.
I’ve been to a few yoga classes. I’ve had a few mornings in a cafe by myself, just writing. I’ve met a friend for breakfast. I’ve sat down to read a book.
And I’ve felt guilty and selfish. I know it’s irrational, I know that I need this time, I know that I need to do what fills my soul (outside of my children). Yet, that familiar guilty pang when I’m alone, enjoying a second cup of coffee, it takes away a little of the joy.
I overcompensate then, by going on a chore frenzy, just to make myself feel ‘useful’ – dinner prep, baking, cleaning, tidying, laundry. Then I feel like I haven’t used my free time well.
It’s not a good cycle. I want to enjoy this time, guilt-free. I deserve it. For myself, for my children.
This more/ less list is designed to achieve a happy balance. Here’s to more fun, less stress!
What do you wish you could do more or less of?