Motherhood Has Taken Me

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Motherhood is crazyMotherhood has taken me

to the place of pain where my stomach felt like it was being ripped out

to the point where my knees meet the floor as gravity pulls

to the very ends of my physical strength and endurance

to a place where inhibitions were shed

to a state of mind where happiness and sadness collide

to a plane of joy where my heart expanded, and contracted, just like my insides.

Motherhood has taken me

to the edges of sanity

to a screaming voice that cannot be mine

to the middle of a crying storm

to a peace of mind

to a heart beating for two now

to feelings so alien yet familiar.

Motherhood has taken me

to gentle sighs

to tiny limbs and big eyes

to giggles and laughter so true

to cheering on of little steps

to hands that clasp fingers so naturally

to a warm body next to mine in a space that was never there before.

Motherhood has taken me

to arms and legs going forth

to talking voices and questioning minds

to hearts in hands as a part of us grow further away

to hearts in throats as pain is more than just a scrape on the outside

to open arms as salve to soothe the hurts.

Motherhood has taken me

to highs so high and lows so low

to thoughts so deep and so shallow

to others who are the same, but different

to come to a love undefinable

to moments of great wisdom and silliness

to the point of no return.

Where has motherhood or parenting taken you?

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Alison Lee is a former PR and marketing professional turned work-at-home mother. After a 10-year career in various PR agencies, and of the world’s biggest sports brands, Alison traded in product launches and world travel, for sippy cups, diapers, and breastfeeding. Alison's writing has been featured on Mamalode, On Parenting at The Washington Post, The Huffington Post, Everyday Family, Scary Mommy, and She is one of 35 essayists in the anthology, My Other Ex: Women’s True Stories of Leaving and Losing Friends. In 2012, she founded Little Love Media, a social media consultancy specializing in blog book tours, and because she doesn’t sleep, is an editor at BonBon Break, an online magazine. Alison lives in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia with her husband and four children (two boys and boy/ girl twins).

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  • March 18, 2013 Stasha

    I love your poetry. And your way of mothering.

    • March 22, 2013 Alison

      Thank you, Stasha. xo

  • March 18, 2013 Kim

    Seriously, this is so, so, incredibly beautiful Alison. The words themselves weave in and out and around, just as in this Life of Motherhood, where we stand in the center of it all.

    Thank You.

    • March 22, 2013 Alison

      Your kind words made my day, Kim!

  • March 18, 2013 Christine

    Love this Alison. Your words are beautiful. I’m absolutely amazed at where motherhood has brought me – the highs and the lows.
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    • March 22, 2013 Alison

      Isn’t it a wild ride? Thanks Christine!

  • March 18, 2013 ilene

    Where happiness and sadness collide – a screaming voice that is not mine – highs so high and lows so low–yes yes and yes to all of this! So lovely and all so true! Beautiful! xo
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    • March 22, 2013 Alison

      Thank you, Ilene!

  • March 18, 2013 Mirjam

    Such gorgeous writing, Alison!
    This? This is poetry.
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    • March 22, 2013 Alison

      Thank you so much, Mirjam.

  • March 18, 2013 Susi

    Beautiful. That is all. πŸ™‚
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    • March 23, 2013 Alison

      Thank you very much, Susi.

  • March 18, 2013 sarah

    beautiful. motherhood has taken me to the center of the earth and back. to another galaxy and back. deep into dreams and back. in other words, everywhere πŸ™‚
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    • March 23, 2013 Alison

      You say it so much more beautifully than I ever could!

  • March 18, 2013 Karen Dawkins

    How lovely. Motherhood has taken me on the same journey, but it looks prettier in poetry. πŸ™‚
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    • March 23, 2013 Alison

      One can take more liberties when calling it ‘poetry’ πŸ™‚

  • March 18, 2013 Julia's Math

    I have been told that motherhood is to live with your heart outside of your body for the rest of your life. I could not agree more. Motherhood is also never being totally alone again… Even your own thoughts are part of someone else now. It’s the best and worst thing; I wouldn’t trade it for anything. No one tells you how much you will grow as a person when you become a mother either. I’m proud of the accomplishments I’ve made and hopeful my challenges will be conquer-able.
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    • March 23, 2013 Alison

      Heart walking outside body – yes, definitely. The never being alone – yes to that too. Especially to the bathroom. πŸ™‚

  • March 18, 2013 tracy

    Beautiful beautiful. oxoxoxo
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    • March 23, 2013 Alison

      Thank you, thank you. xoxoxo

  • March 18, 2013 Leigh Ann

    Love the last line. It’s all so true, especially the part about the screaming. πŸ˜‰

    • March 23, 2013 Alison

      Hah! It’s pretty therapeutic, the screaming πŸ™‚

  • March 18, 2013 Arnebya

    Motherhood has taken me to heights I never imagined, to lows I never expected. It’s taken me to depths of love so deep my breath has caught, to levels of happiness so high I felt…high. All of the nuances and parallels between are just as amazing and telling and worthy. It is an experience unlike any other in the world for its ability to make us move swifter than we ever imagined, to make us resolute in a decision, and to make us realize that people so much smaller could wield so much power over us. And crazy. It’s taken me from general crazy to outright, certifiable CRAZY. And I wouldn’t change a thing.
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    • March 23, 2013 Alison

      OMG, the power-wielding thing is SO TRUE!

  • March 18, 2013 Sara

    Alison, this is so beautifully written! The honesty in your words is touching. I think we can all relate to both the highs and the lows!
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    • March 23, 2013 Alison

      Thanks so much, Sara!

  • March 19, 2013 Natalie

    Yes to all of these! You are such a great writer…I enjoy watching you grow in motherhood and in your writing πŸ™‚
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    • March 23, 2013 Alison

      You’re so sweet, Natalie, thank you so much.

  • March 19, 2013 Olga

    Alison, this is beautifully said. I can honestly say that motherhood has definitely taken me to some places you’ve mentioned in this beautiful poem.
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    • March 23, 2013 Alison

      Thank you, Olga.

  • March 19, 2013 Runnermom-jen

    You summed motherhood up perfectly and poetically.
    Simply beautiful, Alison.
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    • March 23, 2013 Alison

      Thank you, lovely Jen. πŸ™‚

  • March 19, 2013 Kim

    I love this, Alison.The wisdom and the silliness, the open arms, the love undefinable, coupled with the highs and lows, the crying storms and growing further away – I was nodding, It is so true – and so beautifully said,
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    • March 23, 2013 Alison

      Glad you loved it, Kim. Thank you.

  • March 19, 2013 Tamara

    So beautiful and poetic. I always steal that line from The Simpsons to describe motherhood in my life: “the terrifying lows, the dizzying highs, the creamy middles”…I want it all. I have it all.
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    • March 23, 2013 Alison

      That’s a beautiful quote, Tamara.

  • March 19, 2013 AnnMarie

    This is beautiful, Alison. So well-written. Motherhood has taken me on a wild rollercoaster ride.
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    • March 23, 2013 Alison

      Thank you, my friend. It is certainly a crazy ride!

  • March 19, 2013 Blond Duck

    Nowhere yet!
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  • March 19, 2013 Tracie

    Your words, and your heart, are so very beautiful.
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    • March 23, 2013 Alison

      Thank you, lovely.

  • March 19, 2013 Kiran

    Motherhood has taken me out to sea and I often didn’t know if I would make it back to shore.

    Motherhood has made me miss the confident, bubbly and always positive girl of my youth, who seems to be taking a breather while this quieter and more reserved mother me takes her place.

    Motherhood has filled my heart with purpose, with love, with a pain I never knew you could exist. The pain of watching your children experience their own pain is the worst kind of pain I have faced.

    There will never be a me that doesn’t define myself as a mother as one of my two three adjectives.

    Motherhood is the grace I try to capture every day.

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    • March 23, 2013 Alison

      Oh hon, that was beautiful. Truly beautiful.
      Love you too. xoxo

  • March 19, 2013 keely

    Ohhh…weepy. (Also, motherhood has taken me to weepy places.)

    Perhaps I’ve been viewing your site on a reader for a while, but…it’s super purty in an actual browser!
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    • March 23, 2013 Alison

      Oh yes, weepy. Lately, I’ve been weepy (don’t ask).
      Also, thank you. I’m glad you clicked through to see my new blog dress πŸ™‚

  • March 19, 2013 Laura

    Beautiful Alison.

    Motherhood has taken me to the place where I feel so unbelievably lost while also knowing I am exactly where I am supposed to be. (Also, I just typed “bed” instead of “be” which probably gives you a good hint as to where motherhood has NOT taken me.)
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    • March 23, 2013 Alison

      Oh hon, bed? What bed? πŸ™‚

  • March 19, 2013 Julia

    Gorgeous, truly. I love this poetry and reading your heart. I think this is my favorite piece from you so far.
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    • March 23, 2013 Alison

      Aw, thank you Julia, that’s lovely of you to say.

  • March 19, 2013 Robin

    I love your use of language here. Each of those snippets is a whole picture in itself. Lovely, and all so true, but this is my favourite: “to a warm body next to mine in a space that was never there before.” Love it.
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    • March 23, 2013 Alison

      I live that reality every night πŸ™‚
      Thank you, so much. xo

  • March 19, 2013 Leslie

    So beautifully put. β€œTo hands that clasp fingers so naturally” just made me completely melt. I’d say that motherhood has taken me to the limits of my patience, yet shown me love beyond what I could have ever imagined.
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    • March 23, 2013 Alison

      Oh yes, limits of patience. Mine has been stretched thin!

  • March 19, 2013 Barbara

    Gorgeous! Motherhood has taken me to places I never thought I would go.
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    • March 23, 2013 Alison

      Thank you, Barbara.

  • To all those places and beyond.
    This is so beautifull!
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    • March 23, 2013 Alison

      Thank you, Tinne!

  • March 19, 2013 Jennifer

    What a beautiful piece, and so true! Love the way you put feelings into words and allow us readers to feel it with you, through our own memories, while reading yours. (Hope that made sense!) It was beautiful and moving.
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    • March 23, 2013 Alison

      It totally made sense. πŸ™‚ Thank you, Jennifer.

  • March 20, 2013 another jennifer

    Yes, yes, yes. Just yes.
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  • March 20, 2013 Kimberly

    I can’t remember if I commented on this because I read it yesterday but I just wanted to say that you are an amazing mom. I think all of us are so blessed to be parents. It’s a wonderful ride xoxo
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    • March 23, 2013 Alison

      No more amazing than you, my love. I hope you’re okay. I think about you all the time. xo

  • March 20, 2013 Lady Jennie

    This was just perfect.
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    • March 23, 2013 Alison

      Thank you, my dearest friend. xo

  • March 20, 2013 Poppy

    Aww, yes the voice that can’t be mine. Lovely Alison.
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    • March 23, 2013 Alison

      Thank you, Poppy. xo

  • March 20, 2013 Elaine A.

    I adore how you wrote this. And it really is amazing to think of all the places it has taken us… beautiful, my friend.
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    • March 23, 2013 Alison

      Thank you, sweet Elaine!

  • March 20, 2013 Jessica

    Motherhood is full of surprises.
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    • March 23, 2013 Alison

      It most certainly is.

  • March 20, 2013 Adrienn

    I love this post. Nothing in life prepares you for being a mother until you’re a mother. The most profound thing I have learned from being a mother is now knowing how much my mother loved me, and still does. Stopping by from SITS. Have a great day!
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    • March 23, 2013 Alison

      It is amazing the things we learn and realize as soon as those little people pop out, isn’t it?

  • March 20, 2013 Leah

    Beautiful! Captures the full realm of what motherhood really is.

    • March 23, 2013 Alison

      Thank you Leah.

  • March 21, 2013 Greta

    There are some days when I am BOTH kinds of crazy. Motherhood has taken my memory, my patience, sometimes my sense of self, and definitely my selfishness.
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    • March 23, 2013 Alison

      Oh yes, I’ve been both kinds of crazy at the same time too πŸ™‚

  • March 21, 2013 Jessica

    Two words: Love this! (That’s all!)
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    • March 23, 2013 Alison

      Thank you Jessica!

  • March 22, 2013 Tammy

    Boy, you’re just getting all deep down and poetic-y. Have you been sipping a lot of tea and wearing blazers with leather elbow patches?

    Beautiful stuff.
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    • March 23, 2013 Alison

      Did you peek through my window? πŸ™‚

      Thank you, Tammy.

  • March 22, 2013 Kimberly

    Beautifully written. Love this!
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  • March 23, 2013 My Inner Chick

    You have taken me, Alison Lee….back into my “young mother days.”

    thank you!

    Love Xxx
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    • March 23, 2013 Alison

      That makes me happy, Kim. xoxo

  • March 24, 2013 Julia

    So beautiful, motherhood definitely takes me through all the extremes of emotions and experiences. It’s a wonderful ride.
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    • March 31, 2013 Alison

      Thank you, Julia.

  • March 24, 2013 Robbie

    breathtakingly accurate description of motherhood.
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    • March 31, 2013 Alison

      Thank you, Robbie.

  • March 24, 2013 Tricia

    These words are so perfect.
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  • March 31, 2013 Katie

    it has taken me right to hell and right to paradise.

    at the exact same time.

    motherhood is completely logical and the ultimate paradox.

    at the exact same time.

    I love your writing, my friend.
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    • March 31, 2013 Alison

      Your comment is beautiful, Katie! And thank you, the feeling is mutual. xo

  • April 6, 2013 Tonya

    Motherhood is hell, isn’t it? And it has taken me there and back. Sometimes daily. It’s magical and frustrating and all encompassing.
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    • April 6, 2013 Alison

      All encompassing it absolutely is.

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