Ideas that used to swirl in my head at all hours have been held hostage.
Motivation that used to get me out of bed at 6.00 a.m. to go to the gym has gone on vacation.
My mind feels empty.
My heart feels numb.
My legs feel heavy.
Inertia.
Not sad. Not happy. Not anything.
Inertia.
The need to write hangs around like a ghost that needs to be exorcised.
Words, words, words.
Inertia.
This editorial calendar on the blog has empty squares.
The need to fill them bugs me like fingernail scratches on a chalkboard.
Inertia.
Checking off my daily to-do list fills my need for some order.
It adds to my inertia, for no discernible reason.
I wake up, I shower, I change into clean clothes.
I make sure my children get baths, wear clean clothes, get fed at regular hours, take their naps, go to bed at night.
I do laundry, tidy the house, clean what needs to be cleaned, cook dinner.
Yet, I feel like I did nothing.
Inertia.
Source: skillsthrillsbills.tumblr.com via Alison on Pinterest
Update: After writing this, I wrote four posts. FOUR! I guess writing about not being able to write does help. Especially since I don’t drink or wear lipstick.
Newborns will do that to you. They’re totally worth it for a little brain melting, housework slacking.
Greta ‘s last awesome post..Project 365: Week 31
You think it’s because of the baby? I don’t know. Because I was writing just fine even after he was born. But there was a lot of blog fodder then
Maybe not. But I do know that the lack of sleep definitely caught up with me after a few weeks and it felt like I couldn’t do anything.
Greta ‘s last awesome post..Project 365: Week 31
The thing is, I can get the day-to-day things done, albeit a little sluggishly. I was just creatively blocked. Could be the accumulated sleep deprivation!
Babies, fits and starts. Good for you!
Amanda ‘s last awesome post..Make a List
Oh, Wow…we are on the same page. I am having a terrible time of it. I seem to have all these ideas swirling aound at times when I don’t have a notebook around. I need to start carrying one around with me. When I sit down at the computer, I feel stuck. What is that? Where did it go? Glad to see you got four posts after though. I’m hoping that writing my Glass Half Empty/Full breaks me of it.
AnnMarie ‘s last awesome post..Flashback to the 80′s
Good luck, AnnMarie! I found that once I kept going (and kept distractions to a minimum), the writing came much easier.
I’m glad to see that writing this unclogged the block! xo
angela ‘s last awesome post..Running the Bases
Oh, me too!
Twitter: tatterscoops
says:
Maybe that’s what I need to do too. Hah! My editorial calender has been sitting there collecting internet dusts for months now. 4 posts in one sitting, girl, you are on a roll!
Maureen | Tatter Scoops ‘s last awesome post..Friends Who Workout Together, Party Together
I was on a roll! Funny how writing about not being able to write unclogged the block.
Twitter: fromtracie
says:
Four posts! I’m impressed – I never seem to be able to sit down and write multiple posts all at once like that. Maybe I’ll have to try writing about not writing first.
Tracie ‘s last awesome post..Seven Minutes of Gold
Worth a try! When I get into a writing rhythm and I have ideas, I try to just dump the words down and revisit later to edit. Then I can indulge my OCD side and plonk them into my calendar
Twitter: Asianmommy
says:
Glad you got your groove back!
Asianmommy ‘s last awesome post..Olivia Munn on The Newsroom
None gladder than me!
I too am super impressed with 4 posts! I too have a bit case of inertia going on. Usually, when I’m super busy and have deadlines, etc., I am motivated to do work and thrive on that pressure. But lately? Not so much. I’d rather futz around and really just let my brain sleep all day long. I think that it’s because I need a vacation but maybe that’s just me angling for one.
Christine @ Love, Life, Surf ‘s last awesome post..Friday Round-Up: I almost forgot!
Did you tell your husband?
Twitter: laotianmama
says:
What? That’s a new thing? I just thought it was normal day-to-day of being a mom.
I need to spice up my routine too then.
Really though, you’re doing great. It’s a mama funk!
The Laotian Commotion ‘s last awesome post..How Lao Parents React To A Pregnancy Announcement
In a way, yes it is a normal thing – but for me, I always manage to write! And I was stuck. But now am unstuck
It sounds like you have gone on a roll with your post writing! Hooray! I love to read your words.
JDaniel4′s Mom ‘s last awesome post..Olympics for Kids: Long Distance Bike Ride and Hop
Thank you so much, Deirdre!
Hmmm…was I suppose to have an editorial calendar? Love you. xo
tracy@sellabitmum ‘s last awesome post..Don’t Do This
Hee! You don’t need one. Love you too. xo
Oh, wow! 4 posts done? That’s amazing! And yes, you are getting much accomplished!!
I know, right? The kids were napping so I just wrote and wrote and wrote!
You poor thing. You need a vacation. It sounds like you’re burned out.
Blond Duck ‘s last awesome post..Magical Monday and Announcement!
I do. A vacation sans children
Maybe it’s just that time of year…glad you worked through it! I felt like that a few weeks ago. I agree a vacay would do you good!
Natalie ‘s last awesome post..Winner-Winner, Chicken Dinner!
Glad I worked through it too! I go through phases like these occasionally, for no reason. But a vacay would be lovely
Maybe you are (w)rite! But maybe it’s not ‘writing about not being able to write’ that worked. Maybe writing itself kick start the ideas for writing. Hope I’m making sense
jamie ‘s last awesome post..Here is where you begin
Yes, you do make sense! And you may be right
Twitter: ashleytaylor76
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I think we all find that happening from time to time. You have a much better reason right now, though. The days of having a newborn and a toddler are EXHAUSTING and mind-numbing and sometimes all you can do just survive.
thedoseofreality ‘s last awesome post..Is It Really All You Thought It Would Be?
Mind-numbing is right!
Twitter: euregirlsandboy
says:
I’m glad writing this post helped you be able to write more
Newborn days just sort of pass by and it seems like nothing’s accomplished – but a healthy baby’s growing, right?
Katie E ‘s last awesome post..Magazine Day: Zombie Us Weekly!
Yes! A good perspective
Twitter: momma23monkeys
says:
I’ve been stuck lately too. I had lots to say but just couldn’t get the words out of my head. For me I think it was the monotony of things that got me down. I’ve stepped out of my comfort zone IRL and it’s helped maky my brain not so fuzzy.
Umm 4 posts in one sitting?? IMPRESSIVE!! I’d say Alison got her groove back!
Robbie ‘s last awesome post..Long Live Summer
Isn’t it frustrating – to have words swirling in your head but it just stays there? Hope you get YOUR groove back soon!
Twitter: adayinmollywood
says:
I’ve been having quite a bit of writer’s block. One week I will be rockin’ it. The next week I am completely silent.
I’m glad you got your mojo back though. Four posts is awesome!
molly ‘s last awesome post..Your One Flaw
Once I get some mojo, I squeeze as much juice out of it as possible. And I squeezed 4 posts out. They’re not perfect, but at least it’s something and I can still go back and edit (which I will).
Twitter: CourtneyKirklnd
says:
Four posts?! Way to go, mama! I’m sure having a little one doesn’t help either. I get like that sometimes. When I DO find the energy and the creative juices start flowing, I don’t like to turn them off. Sometimes their is no guarantee when they might be back.
Courtney Kirkland ‘s last awesome post..Little Bitty Toys Review & Giveaway
Yes, exactly! Once I got started and it just flowed, I stayed with it. Fortunately. Because I’m kinda stuck again.
Stopping by from SITS
I get stuck like that sometimes, where you kind of just feel like you’re going through the motions and not really connecting to anything or accomplishing anything. I find that I need to do something big to shake things up a bit.
Melissa @ Completely Eclipsed ‘s last awesome post..Fear of the Unknown
Writing this post did shake things up a little for me!
Thanks for visiting!
We all go through waves of this but the best thing to do is write about feeling that way. Just as you saw, it opened up and freed your mind to write so much more.
On a side note, I can’t believe how big the boys are getting. Watching them on Instagram is like watching them grow in real life. I love being able to share in it!
Kristen ‘s last awesome post..Girls in Sports
You’re right, it did free my mind to get things going. Also, isn’t Instagram wonderful?
I’ve just come to know this as normal… sometimes I got it, sometimes I don’t. It ebbs and flows and I’m ok with it. Most of the time!
Jamie ‘s last awesome post..weekend wisdom
Ebb and flow indeed
Be kind to yourself, sweet friend.
I say slow and steady is where it’s at. Also, chocolate is totally where it’s at, too.
xo
Galit Breen ‘s last awesome post..Big Love, Small Steps
Chocolate is always welcomed!
Being kind to ourselves should be so easy, but it’s not, is it?
Twitter: JanBierens
says:
Nothing wrong with having a little bit of the bloggin’ blues… It’ll happen every once in a while, nothing to worry about. Inhale / exhale and you’ll live. The Internet won’t stop functioning when you don’t post, trust me.
Ended up writing four, huh? I need some of *your* writers block…
JanBierens ‘s last awesome post..Google Rules – Do they really?
Inhale, exhale, indeed, good advice, Jan
Alison, even your writing about your lack of creativity and lack of writing is beautiful.
xo
Runnermom-jen ‘s last awesome post..Be Happy
Aw, shucks, Jen. xo
Twitter: ksluiter
says:
sometimes you have to write through the clog to unclog the clog that is clogged.
wait.
what?
you know what i mean.
Katie ‘s last awesome post..thoughts on going back to school
Hee!
Yes, yes, I do.
summer has me feeling this same exact way….it’s like you’re peaking in my windows….so much needs to be done and I know I’m going through the motions but it still seems like nothing is accomplished and I feel empty….
like this is the first time I’ve been to your new page…because it’s summer and I have nothing but time yet no time at all….
Not a Perfect Mom ‘s last awesome post..My Dinner Guests….
And soon, summer will be over, and you’ll be back to your old self! Right?
I just have to tell you–I hope I’m as good of a writer/ blogger like you when we have kids. You’re inspirational.
Blond Duck ‘s last awesome post..Magical Monday and Announcement!
Aw, thank you, that’s so sweet of you to say.
Oh this is great. I love the update. I get that inertia when I am tired. And your baby is so young….of course you have this sense of not feeling as you described so perfectly. I related, except I spent so much time raging and being exhausted that inertia might have looked good on me.
I don’t even have the energy to rage
Twitter: copilotmom
says:
I like the word ‘inertia’ – I have had days like the one you describe and I think that is a great word for it. Glad that it has passed and you are unclogged again – four posts, that’s fantastic!
Co-Pilot Mom ‘s last awesome post..Vacation
Thank you, I did feel a little accomplished after the four posts! Now I can slink around for another 2 weeks before I need to write again
I’ve felt this way a little the past few weeks… but I’ve been really spending time with the kids, doing some travelling etc… and when I finally have time to write I sit and stare. So much to do, so little time… Glad to hear this unstuck it for you!!!
Susi ‘s last awesome post..Some blanks to fill in…
I haven’t even been doing any fun stuff like travelling Just the day-to-day stuff dragging me down. Sigh.
Twitter: lucilleinthesky
says:
I totally know what you mean. I do, do, do all day, and then I feel like I did nothing. Ugh. So frustrating. It’s so much work to take care of a family. Some day they will appreciate it… Also, I have been feeling the same way lately. It’s hard to be motivated to exercise especially. I blame it on the summer We have been conditioned from the first decade or two of our life that summers are meant for relaxing. It’s not necessarily a bad thing, but as adults, we must find the balance.
Lucy ‘s last awesome post..Beyond the end of the world.
Looking after a family IS exhausting. Someone did point out, you’re not accomplishing nothing – the kids are happy and loved and growing, that’s something, yes? Sometimes, a change of perspective is needed
Twitter: southmainmuse
says:
I have serious inertia going. This is a big problem because I have something due Friday. My desire to write (something that requires brainpower) is stuck in neutral. Hope that I get new movement forward when school starts tomorrow.
Jamie@southmainmuse ‘s last awesome post..I was not a good mummy today.
I hope you managed to move forward, Jamie!
Twitter: beeswithhoney
says:
Post 2nd baby blues. It happens. Although I feel the inertia every now and then and I stopped having babies 4 years ago.
Glad you got your write on after this post! Yeehaw!
Bruna from Bees with Honey ‘s last awesome post..a summer hike in the snow
Yes I did, and yeehaw indeed!
Twitter: KalleyC
says:
Wow, 4 posts. Glad you are no longer stuck. This happens to the better of us. We all go through dry spells then next thing you know, you can’t contain the dam of ideas and words.
KalleyC ‘s last awesome post..Our Typical Morning Conversation
Yes, it ebbs and flows, doesn’t it?
Twitter: csiracusa
says:
I agree, Alison. I think there really IS something to just getting it out. I had a similar experience with my rejection post. Glad you’re writing again.
Christine @ Quasi Agitato ‘s last awesome post..Hangin’ With Scary Mommy.
None gladder than me
I feel this way all the flipping time. My best suggestion is to just get out. Even if it’s to run out for a coffee (or tea). The thing that gets me is when my days feel like groundhog day – that I’m just completely repeating my steps over and over. I’m sure you’ll find something soon that gives you that spark you’re needing.
Elena ‘s last awesome post..Salsa Me, Please
If only I have the time and freedom to get out whenever I like! Sigh.
Ugh, I’m right there with ya. I just feel like I have so much to do and the more I think about it, the less I want to do anything!
Rach (DonutsMama) ‘s last awesome post..A Rare Treasure
Yes! Which is why I’m giving up on thinking about it.
I have found that when I feel this way, getting outside in the sun is the best thing I can do.
Glad you have something that works for you
I wrote 3 posts in an hour the night I got home from BlogHer. I think I had stuff just swirling in my brain that had to get out! BUT. I’ve had very little motivation to do anything else since then. I need some Inertia BAD.
Elaine A. ‘s last awesome post..BlogHer ’12, The Love Post
Don’t wish too hard!
You inspired me to get off my duff and get something done. Thank you
Finished my very first written product today. I think you get some of the credit!
I’m glad my inertia helped someone!
You could have taken the words right out of my mouth…except far more eloquently. Glad to hear you’ve found a bit more of your blogging mojo!
Leslie ‘s last awesome post..Things I’m Afraid To Tell You
I’m glad too!
Twitter: krrobi
says:
—Love the honesty and freshness of your voice, Mama A.
Even when you feel as if you are doing nothing…
you are doing something.
SO MUCH SOMETHING! Xxx
My Inner Chick ‘s last awesome post..Broken & Wingless
Thank you, Kim. Thank you.
My favorite part of this post is your update. This ALWAYS happens to me. Just when I think I need a break from blogging, I get uber inspired and the words just flow. Sometimes just stepping back and pausing helps immensely.
Tonya ‘s last awesome post..God & Angels
Stepping back does help. Writing about not writing helped for sure!
I never have the time to write anymore and my youngest is nearly 8 months. I admire you!
Writing is the one thing that’s mine and mine alone, so I HAVE to make time
I don’t drink or wear lipstick either. But I am completely running on empty these days. Well does editing thousands of customer photos count? Yeay for two beautiful boys happy and four posts written.
Stasha ‘s last awesome post..Wordless Wednesday
But you’re always out and about! Not like me, stuck at home most days. And yes, hurrah for two happy boys and posts written!
Twitter: juliahembree
says:
Beautifully written. I have felt this way lately, and my blog space has been quiet. I haven’t had much to say; I have felt buried under the tasks of daily living rather than inspired by the joy of daily life.
So glad to hear that your writing inspiration came back to you! And in case I haven’t told you yet, I LOVE the new site!
Julia ‘s last awesome post..All Birds Go To Heaven
You said it succinctly, Julia. Hope you get your inspiration back soon. And thank you!
I believe the same thing you do, A, before we can write we have to move the obstacles,the debris/ the rubble out of the way.
Then things can flow again.
I’m sitting here, getting ready to pound out 4 things,too.
xo Thanks for keeping me company.
Thank YOU.
I cannot imagine you, with writing inertia. You pound those beautiful words out so regularly xo