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I am pretty tired.
I wonder when I’ll ever have a full night’s sleep again.
I hear that’s going to be NEVER.

I see dark circles under my eyes.
I want to sleep for a full night, whatever that means.
I am still functional though. 

I pretend at playing adult. My inner child is protesting.
I feel all the feelings these days. It’s part of mothering.
I touch my babies’ soft, smooth cheeks, and hope that I can give them all that they need and more.
I worry that I don’t.
I cry in secret.
I am a tired, but functional, feel-all-the-feelings-adult.

I understand that the world is challenging, that it’s big and bad out there.
I say I fear it for my children.
I dream that it will be a better place when they grow up.
I try to do my part in making their world wonderful.
I hope I’m doing a decent job.
I am a mother.

This is an Old School Blogging prompt, hosted by Elaine and co-hosted by Angela. I’d love to read YOUR interpretation! Just copy the words in bold, write your post and link up!


Alison Lee is a former PR and marketing professional turned work-at-home mother. After a 10-year career in various PR agencies, and of the world’s biggest sports brands, Alison traded in product launches and world travel, for sippy cups, diapers, and breastfeeding. Alison's writing has been featured on Mamalode, On Parenting at The Washington Post, The Huffington Post, Everyday Family, Scary Mommy, and DrGreene.com. She is one of 35 essayists in the anthology, My Other Ex: Women’s True Stories of Leaving and Losing Friends. In 2012, she founded Little Love Media, a social media consultancy specializing in blog book tours, and because she doesn’t sleep, is an editor at BonBon Break, an online magazine. Alison lives in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia with her husband and four children (two boys and boy/ girl twins).

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  • May 12, 2015 tracy

    Oh gosh – I felt myself in all of these. xoxo
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  • May 13, 2015 Julia

    I love what you did with this! I felt like I could picture exactly what you were going through.
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  • May 13, 2015 Tamara

    I don’t even just cry in person anymore. I think I’ve cried in front of too many people this year! Ah well.
    You’re a wonderful person and mother and blogger.
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  • May 13, 2015 Nina

    Excellent, honest, and right to the heart of where you are now. This is old school blogging. I love it.
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  • May 14, 2015 AwesomelyOZ

    I am definitely plenty tired and functional enough indeed; barely though. Thank God for caffeine! Take Care momma! -Iva
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  • May 14, 2015 Elaine A.


  • May 14, 2015 Jennifer

    You are doing a more than decent job.
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  • May 14, 2015 Sandra

    Aww hun, you will sleep again. It does end. But then they never move out, and you’re all, “Man, are they ever going to leave?” lol
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  • May 15, 2015 Angela Youngblood

    You will sleep more when your babies get bigger. Not much, but a little more for sure. Four little ones are exhausting! (Fist bump of understanding the whole mama of four tiredness, yo.) And um, I LOVE your line about your inner child protesting. I feel that way all the time. 🙂
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  • May 15, 2015 alexandra

    I read this and wish I could come visit you. Spend some time with you, and hold your babies so you can sleep . xo

  • May 15, 2015 Kir

    You are such an amazing human being, in every way.
    Every single day I live in awe of you…what you do, how you live, what you are capable of.

    I feel so lucky, so proud, so blessed to know you and call you my friend.

    *Sweet dreams love*
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  • May 17, 2015 Natalie

    I pretend to be an adult too…as in how am I trusted to raise these kids? 🙂

  • May 18, 2015 Shell

    I always feel like I’m just pretending to be an adult. I wonder if that will ever go away.

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