My dearest twin babies,
Oh. My. God. Nearly 8 months into this gig as a twin pregnancy mother, I am still OhMyGoding, because it’s a little hard to wrap one’s head around the idea of twins. Of two babies at once. Of having hands and hearts full. Of doubling the number of children at one go.
You see, my little ones, you are the first twins ever to grace the family, as far as I know. There hasn’t been any before on my side of the family, and I have heard rumours of twins from your father’s side, but they are as yet, uncomfirmed. It’s a big deal to all of us. This is unfamiliar territory.
What is familiar though, my darlings, is that I know I already love the both of you. I envision your little faces (and looking very much like your older brothers), with all the expressions babies are so good at. I see you sleeping, crying, feeding, and just being. I will not fool myself into thinking that just because I’ve been round the block twice with your brothers, that I will know with absolute certainty how I’m going to handle the daily stuff with the two of you. I just know that I have the support and help I need, here in our home, and in the virtual world, where your arrival is awaited with great anticipation (as your Aunty Alexandra says, we will all lose our minds when you’re born!).
I want to tell you both a little about your brothers. Oh, your brothers. The first two pieces of my heart. You see, since March, even when you were teeny tiny, I told them about you two. “Babies!” I exclaim.
I am not sure they understand completely what ‘twins’ mean, but they know they’re going to be big brothers (for your oldest brother, it’s round two!), and your second brother is beside himself with excitement. He kisses the two of you (well, my belly) all the time, and has already offered to ‘carry’ you.
Your oldest brother is a sweet, loving boy. Yes, he’s not been the easiest child, or the nicest big brother 100% of the time, but who is? I would say that he loves his little brother with all his heart, in the best way he knows how – he comforts him when he’s crying, he hugs him, and is always, always happy to play with him. He’s turning into quite the artist, so maybe he’ll draw you one of his special pictures. He may also try to feed you his breakfast waffles. Don’t be tempted until you’re at least 6 months old, deal?
Your second brother is the daredevil, and is ever cheerful. He climbs, jumps, runs and dances with wild abandon. He talks about his preschool friends all the time (and yes, he’s a bit of a tattletale, but I’ll let it slide for now, because, TWO), and he’s obsessed with vehicles and Spiderman. He may try to give you his little cars and trucks, maybe even the big ones, because he does share, sometimes. If you ask nicely. He also likes babies, so WIN! It can be awkward when he points out babies in public and yells, BABIES! But we embrace his enthusiasm because it’s just a part of him. I hope you do too, because it’s just the way he shows love.
You’re due in 26 days, so I hope you stay put until then, because we want to bring you home as soon as possible from the hospital. Actually, stay put a little longer, why not? Because this is my last pregnancy, I may as well enjoy every second.
I cannot wait to meet you, my miracle twins, my youngest children, the final two pieces of my heart.
We love you so much already.