That Time I Lost My Shit

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You know how blogging gurus and SEO (search engine optimization) whizzes tell you that you have to ‘SEO’ your post title? To enable your post to be top of the page when people are searching for something specific? Well, if you’re searching for anything related to poop, or shit, welcome! But be prepared to be disappointed because this post is not about poop, it’s about my meltdown.

I threw an adult-sized tantrum a few months ago, and at first, I wanted to blog about it immediately, because it was the kind of thing you do when you’re a blogger – “I should blog this”. But I didn’t because I felt like a jerk after it happened, and I did not want you to think that I was a jerk.

Lose your temper quote

However, we are being real here. I’ve already told you about feeding cake and french fries to my children at the most inappropriate times. I’ve confessed to not always loving motherhood. I think I can spill the beans now about how un-zen I was one afternoon without fear of judgment.

It was a hot, hot afternoon. Already sweltering with the baby strapped to my chest in the Baby Bjorn, and loaded down with my handbag, a bag of groceries, and my son’s school bag, the last thing I needed was for him to throw a tantrum. But throw a tantrum he did. It started in the school, continued to our walk to the car, and he refused to get in. There happened to be a bunch of people fussing over/ gawking at a car being towed, which was right in front of where I’d parked.

So not only was I sweating and fighting my 3 year old, we had an audience. One dude said to me, “Why is he crying?” to which I snapped, “None of your business.” I had to haul my 30+ pound child into the car (remember, I still had the baby strapped to me), kicking and screaming, force him into the car seat while he bucked and arched. My temper was rising with the heat, the back of my neck prickling with sweat. 

Finished, I closed the car door, and looked up to see a car pull up and stopped right beside mine on the other side, blocking the very door I had to access, to get the baby into his car seat. The driver got out, and walked over to the car that was being towed (Quick quiz: How many assholes does it take to get a car towed? Answer: Too many). I marched up to my car door, opened it and could not get it to open wider than a few inches, far too tight a squeeze to get my child in. 

“Hey! YOU!”

The driver turned to look at me, quizzically. 

“MOVE. YOUR. CAR.”

“What? Wait. I’m busy, can’t you see?” he gestured rudely.

“I SAID. MOVE YOUR F*CKING CAR NOW!”

“I said, wait.” 

“I AM NOT KIDDING, YOU BETTER MOVE YOUR F*CKING CAR NOW, OR ELSE! I HAVE A SCREAMING KID BY HIMSELF IN THE CAR, AND I NEED TO OPEN THIS DOOR, SO I CAN PUT MY BABY IN. MOVE YOUR CAR, A**HOLE!”

Shocked, the asshat finally walked over, got into his car, and backed up into a parking space behind my car

“WHY DIDN’T YOU JUST PARK THERE IN THE FIRST PLACE, A**HOLE?!”

Yes, I was relentless. I was pissed. I lost my shit. I lost it all over that parking lot. I lost it while my son was screaming in the car. I lost it while I still had my baby strapped to my chest, my yelling probably scaring him. I did not consider for a moment that I could have been dealing with someone who might have been dangerous, who might have been more pissed off at me than I was at him. I did not consider any of that. All I thought about was, I need to get the hell out of here NOW, out of this hot sun, into my cold, air-conditioned car, back to the comfort of my own home so I could deal with my tantrum-y child. 

By the time we got home? Both kids were laughing and playing, like nothing had just happened.

Me? I just felt like a jerk. 

When was the last time you lost your shit? What happened?

 

Alison
Alison Lee is a former PR and marketing professional turned work-at-home mother. After a 10-year career in various PR agencies, and of the world’s biggest sports brands, Alison traded in product launches and world travel, for sippy cups, diapers, and breastfeeding. Alison's writing has been featured on Mamalode, On Parenting at The Washington Post, The Huffington Post, Everyday Family, Scary Mommy, and DrGreene.com. She is one of 35 essayists in the anthology, My Other Ex: Women’s True Stories of Leaving and Losing Friends. In 2012, she founded Little Love Media, a social media consultancy specializing in blog book tours, and because she doesn’t sleep, is an editor at BonBon Break, an online magazine. Alison lives in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia with her husband and four children (two boys and boy/ girl twins).
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  • October 28, 2013 Maureen

    Well that dude should’ve move his ass in the first place!
    It is part of motherhood, we are only human after all.
    I totally lost my shit when I was almost refused to board a flight back to the US because my boy – then 9 months old – threw a tantrum. Between the thought of missing our connecting flight for a long flight and knowing my boy would fall asleep as soon as we board, which he did btw…yes. I lost my shit and started yelling at the Korean Manager who rudely pointed at my boy and said no-no-no lol.
    There has been some other incidents too but that one was most memorable.
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    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      It’s when we have someone else to consider, that really tip the scales towards being reasonable and losing our shit, yes? Especially when it involves children.

  • October 28, 2013 tracy

    Sometimes I wish I could – but I don’t because I’m that big of an introvert that I would never call attention to myself. I would’ve just sat in my car and cried. Equally as pitiful. Love you. Glad you lost it. Really. xo
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    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      You’re not pathetic, you’re just not a jerkface like me. Love you too. xo

  • October 28, 2013 Tamara

    Oh my word – I am losing my shit right now in solidarity to you. What an asshat. I lost my shit at a peaceful hot springs in Northern California. I think I was unfortunately very memorable to those other patrons.
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    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      Hah! Losing shit and peaceful should not be in one sentence. πŸ™‚

  • October 28, 2013 Kerstin

    What can I say? I’ve lost mt shit more times than I can count, some of those times more memorable than others…. like the one where I told my boss to grow some fucking balls and deal with it… that was probably one of the more memorable ones πŸ˜‰
    I think the problem is that we don’t speak up enough, that’s when it builds up that you just explode.
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    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      You told your boss that? You have balls. πŸ™‚

  • October 28, 2013 MomWithaDot

    I’m living through some rumor-mongering-neighborhood-shittiness myself here,so I hear you girl & hugs!!

    I live in a country where it isn’t uncommon to find people that fire a bullet or two before they think. So, I wouldn’t dare a feat like that. But Bravo sista’ for havin’ the guts to stand up! And here’s wishing we both get to deal with lesser shit in days ahead :D!
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    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      Fortunately, guns are hard to come by where I live. Or I would think twice about confronting a total stranger. πŸ™‚

  • October 28, 2013 Tracie

    I think I would have lost it in that moment, too. The last time I lost my shit I was at home, and I went into the bathroom to throw a little fit until I calmed down. It was not my proudest moment.
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    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      Oh, I’ve had plenty of private shit-losing moments too. xo

  • October 28, 2013 Ma. Teresa Grech Q. Racal

    Know what? I have to tell you that WE ARE JUST HUMAN, MOMS ARE HUMAN BEINGS TOO. To be honest I have lost my temper too, especially when my youngest wants something and she wanted to have it at that moment and every time I tell her NO! She always tries to test my patience and all. So yes, I screamed at her and told her NO, I yelled at her and I know other people are looking or others are staring, wondering. But then again, I feel embarrass but I was caught at the moment. And by the way I hate people who are jerk too.
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    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      I try not to lose it with the children – at least not in public! But like you said, you’re only human.

  • October 28, 2013 Teresa

    I used to lose it all the time. I still do, but usually only to my husband. Like you said, you never know if the other person (the asshole) is dangerous (armed or just psychotic violent). I used to do that all the time when I was in my young twenties and I am so lucky that it never got physical! Self control is something I have battled with for a long time! I probably would have snapped in your situation though. That is just too much. I hate those kind of days. I wonder how scared that guy must have been, LOL!
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    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      He probably thought I was some crazy lady! I really, really try not to lose it, because I consciously control my temper all the time. I used to be a firecracker when I was a kid, but less so in my 20’s, and I like to think I’ve mellowed in my 30’s. This was so one-off, but boy, was it explosive.

  • October 28, 2013 Herchel S

    We all have those days! I last lost my shit at work when a well intentioned yet tactless co worker followed me around making a joke about a sensitive subject. I turned around and yelled at her in the hall. I think that most people were shocked because I’m normally very kind.
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    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      It’s because you’re kind, that your coworker felt it was okay to cross boundaries. Sigh.

  • October 28, 2013 Katie Sluiter

    ::raises hand:: I am a shit-loser. You are not alone.
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    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      I knew we had a lot in common. xo

  • October 28, 2013 Shana Norris

    Alison, you’re very brave for sharing this. I’m currently reading The Mother of All Meltdowns, and it IS so validating to know I’m not the only one who has them. Kids are so resilient. We remember our meltdowns for years to come, but they forget most of them. I only remember one of my own mother’s and I still laugh about it to this day.
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    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      You’re right. I hope so anyway. I would hate to think my kids will remember the time Mom yelled at some stranger. πŸ™‚

  • October 28, 2013 Michelle

    We’ve all had our moments! I think we tend to keep these things to ourselves for fear of judgment, but the reality is it happens to all of us!
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    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      It does, doesn’t it? I just felt awful after that, so I was too embarrassed to write about it. πŸ™‚

  • October 28, 2013 Allie

    Oh I’m so glad you told your story!!! How funny that it’s similar to mine in that we both starting swearing in front of our kids and at complete strangers!? Hey, it happens. The guy *was* an asshole!
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    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      Oh yea! I read your post and thought, hey I wrote something similar! πŸ™‚

  • October 28, 2013 erin margolin

    This makes me love you all the more, Alison..because it shows how “real” you are, and how just the littlest things can turn us inside out.
    So happy you’re sharing this!
    And I lose my shit all the time, but I have to say I don’t think I’ve ever called a stranger an asshole—to his face!!!!

    xoxoxo

    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      Aw, thank you, Erin. xoxo

  • October 28, 2013 Korinthia Klein

    The times I’m most ashamed of myself is when I yell at my kids and know better. It used to happen more when my husband was deployed and I was stressed and on my own, but it still happens once in a while. The last time I feel bad about was when I was digging out the disaster that was my son’s room and started chucking toys against the wall because I was so frustrated with the constant treadmill of cleaning. I want to be a better example but we can’t be perfect all the time.
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    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      No, we most certainly can’t. Sigh.

  • October 28, 2013 Kim

    I tend to lose it in private – I’ll go to my room or to the bathroom. It takes a lot to make me lose it, most of the time. If I can’t hold it in, I cry. Crying seems to be my go-to reaction for strong emotion – even anger, which makes me even angrier.
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    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      I’m a shouter. Sigh.

  • October 28, 2013 Andrea

    Friday morning I lost it. But I only had an audience of one. I’ve had some road rage before in front of some of my best friends, and I’m still cringing about it. It happens to the best of us. πŸ™‚
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    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      It does!

  • October 28, 2013 Carrie

    My God…this is the most real thing I’ve read in ages. Thank you.

    And that’s ok. Losing it ain’t the end of the world.

    I lost mine at work about a month ago. A co-worker kinda lied on me and denied something I distinctly told them. She came to my area and I started out low and calm and quickly escalated to pointing and talking incredibly loud and demanding to know why she denied our conversation.

    I wanted to fucking punch her. And to this minute, I don’t know how I didn’t. I wasn’t me at that time. It was like I had lifted and was watching it all go down from above. In slow motion.

    It took that to get her respect though. I don’t like it…but it had to happen.

    Same with you…it had to happen. When you’re pushed, you gotta push back.
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    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      Y’know, that’s how I felt too – like I wasn’t myself, I wasn’t there, I was just watching it all play out. It was a ridiculous situation which I handled badly but yes, I did feel that I had to push back. I had no interest in standing around all afternoon, waiting for some inconsiderate fool to realize he was blocking my car, and to move his.

      I’m glad your situation resulted in respect! And thank you for your kind words.

  • October 29, 2013 AlwaysARedhead

    I have lost my shit too many times to count, yes it is embarrassing. My two adult daughters and teenage boy are more surprised if I do not lose it. I am a good mom, and my children will attest to that statement, I am just a very vocal mom.
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    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      I think I’m pretty vocal too! πŸ™‚

  • October 29, 2013 Laura at Mommy Miracles

    Ummm… does it make me a bad person that I’m kind of glad you lost it on that guy? You didn’t lose it on your kid, who was misbehaving but is also doing things kids do (that’s usually who I lose it on and then feel like a jerk afterwards). You lost it on the adult who clearly wasn’t thinking of anyone else but himself. Way to be assertive and get what you and your kids needed.
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    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      Thanks Laura! I don’t think you’re a horrible person because that’d be like the pot calling the kettle black. πŸ™‚ I really try hard not to lose it with my kids, especially in public. But yes, that energy had to go somewhere!

  • October 29, 2013 Shannon

    I doubt there is a mother out there who hasn’t lost her shit at one point or another. And the heat does not help. I can’t stand to be hot. Just reading about it almost makes me lose my shit. If I ever get parked in on a hot day, I want you in my corner.
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    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      You got it! πŸ™‚

  • October 29, 2013 Anna Urquhart

    Have I been there? Indeed. On more than one occasion, unfortunately. We are human. It happens. The important thing is that you recognized your behavior wasn’t what it should be. Some people act like that all the time and think it’s the rest of the world’s problem, not their’s. Thanks for your transparency. We’re all on this journey together.
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    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      Thank you, Anna! It’s good to know that we’re not alone. Most definitely.

  • October 29, 2013 Lady Jennie

    Aw! This kind of thing just makes me like you more. You’re HUMAN!!!

    And SoEa Asian heat is brutal. Even in October. I wouldn’t even need the jerk with the car to be in a bad mood.
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    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      I am human. Even though I like to think I’m superhuman. πŸ™‚
      Yes, the heat is awful. The humidity is brutal. I’m sweating all the time!

  • October 29, 2013 Greta

    Oh, I would’ve been fuming. Knowing me, the anti-confronter, I would’ve gotten so mad but not said anything. I can see myself climbing through from the other side. I’m a wuss.

    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      You’re not a wuss! You’re just non-confrontational.

  • October 29, 2013 Nicole

    Asshat is right! What a d-bag. Don’t feel bad, Alison. Every mom gets a hall pass to lose her shit every now and then. Otherwise, we’d never survive the day!
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    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      That’s a good thing to know and remember. πŸ™‚

  • October 29, 2013 Keely

    Okay, I’m torn between wanting to high-five you in empathy…and wanting to high-five you in pride. Which may not be the reaction you expected. And, btw, I don’t have “a time.” I have “a time when I DIDN’T lose it in public.” So there’s that.
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    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      I have two hands!! High five to you too. I cannot imagine you losing it though. You’re always so smiley and doe-eyed. πŸ˜‰

  • October 29, 2013 Runnermom-jen

    Dude!! You know what? Sometimes you just need to lose.your.shit.! I’m sure you felt like a jerk after, but, holy cow!! Are some people so blind to what others are doing? OR the fact that you have a baby strapped to your chest and another screaming in the car? Do not mess with a mama bear…first rule of thumb.
    P.S. I totally wish I could’ve seen your badass meltdown. I would’ve been all ‘Yeah! Move your car you big dummy!!” haha.
    xoxo
    Thanks for making me smile today πŸ™‚
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    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      I’m glad I made you smile. πŸ™‚

  • October 29, 2013 My Inner Chick

    OMGGgggg,

    this was fan-fucking-tastic.

    I love when you lose your SHIT))))!

    Brilliant. xxx

    PS. I lose my shit in private. I swear and yell and swear and swear & say the f and c words aloud!! HAaaaaa.
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    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      πŸ™‚ Love you too!

      I lose my shit in private too. Sometimes. xo

  • October 29, 2013 Tonya

    I FREQUENTLY lose my shit with my dog. Cute as he is, no other living thing gets under my skin like he does.

    Love your honesty here.
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    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      Haha! Ah, Charlie Pasta. Puppies can be infuriatingly cute.

  • October 29, 2013 Ilene

    I lose my shit all the time – and I think about blogging about it and then I don’t because I don’t you all to think I”m a jerk! For real, the ids broke the hammock in front of the house I am living in a few weeks ago – after many warnings about not treating it like a swing. Suffice to say, I think it will be a long time before they treat another hammock like it’s a swing…
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    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      Aw, man, that sucks! I would have totally lost it if it happened to me.

  • October 29, 2013 Dana

    I’ve never lost my shit in public, but there have been times when I wished I had. Instead I play the situation over and over again in my mind. It would be healthier and less stressful to just lose it and be done with it. I admire your guts, Alison- even if you did feel like a jerk.
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    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      I think one public meltdown per person per year is allowed. πŸ™‚

  • October 29, 2013 Kristen

    Ugh. I feel like a lose my shit every day. And usually because people do stupid things without any consideration to others and how it affects them.
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    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      I have mini rages in my car whenever I drive (and that’s every day), because, stupid drivers. πŸ™‚

  • October 29, 2013 Sarah

    Oh man… I’m so sorry you had to go through that. Usually losing my shit is directed toward my children (sadly), but I have gone into mama-bear psycho-protective mode when big kids were climbing all over and stepping on my littler kid who was a reeeeally late walker but still wanted to play on the playground equipment. Losing your shit at other peoples children — not recommended if you want to go back to the playground anytime soon!
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    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      I feel protective of my kids too, when there are older kids in the playground and they seem completely oblivious to the little ones, I don’t blame you!

  • October 29, 2013 Robin

    I cannot begin to tell you how much I love this. I LOVE LOVE it. Because we all lose our shit sometimes.

    And seriously, even without a spot right behind you, how is “I’m busy” an appropriate response to a woman who is trying to get her kids into her car?! I’d have lost my shit too.
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    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      Right? He was just an inconsiderate asshat.

  • October 29, 2013 Serenely

    Oh my! Such drama. You must have been close to the edge anyway with everything that you were handling and dealing with up to that point. So just a little bit more would have tipped you over. But sometimes I wish I had the guts like that to give a well-deserved earful to inconsiderate drivers who really need to be taught a lesson sometimes.
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    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      Normally, I’d probably be nicer about it. But the kids were driving me crazy, so… πŸ™‚

  • October 29, 2013 Jen

    Losing your cool sucks, but hey, it happens. I am NOT kidding when I say I lose it on a daily basis. Usually in the mornings. I am NOT a morning person. I like to wake up slow to relative quiet. These days I wake up to feet in my back because the 2 yo is in the bed between me and my husband and I have slept so poorly all night I just get up. I drag myself out every day an hour before the alarm goes off, and then the 2 yo follows and talks non stop. Then comes the almost teenager. Enough said. Never quiet. Never sleep. Never happy morning. Ugh.
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    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      Um yeah, that’s me in the morning too!

  • October 29, 2013 Thekitchwitch

    I am clearly an awful person, but I’m laughing my butt off over here.
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    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      You’re not awful! In hindsight, it’s pretty funny. πŸ™‚

  • October 29, 2013 sarah reinhart

    Dang girl. I’m picturing all of this going down and I know it was just compounded times a million because of the baby, the sweat, and the unhappy child. Ugh. Totally understandable and relatable. I feel like I’m on the verge of losing my shit WAY more frequently now that I’m pregnant (terrible, I know!)

    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      Oh hon, you have so much going on, who could blame you? xo

  • October 29, 2013 Arnebya

    It’s been a while. I’m afraid of when it happens because I’m convinced it’s going to be months worth of shit I’ve held in.
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    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      I do not envy the person who’s going to get the short end of your straw. πŸ™‚

  • October 30, 2013 Allie

    I love tis post! I has a similar “lost my shit” moment in a parking lot. I was at my daughter’s elementary school last May, for her end of year party, two days after my little brother’s funeral (seriously, sorry – but it speaks to my state of mind at the time). I was basically numb, a walking Zombie. I left the party a little early, because I was due at my son’s preschool, for his preschool graduation. I get to my car and some one had parallel parked right behind me! I had no way to get out! I went into the school and basically had a Shirley McClain moment with the secretary, letting her know if they didn’t find the owner fast I was going to plow through the parking lot taking as many cars as I could. I was borderline hysterical – at my child’s school no less. With a new one starting kindergarten in the fall, I was basically sealing my fate as a whack job for the next 6 years!

    One the first day of school I gave the secretary a $25 Starbucks gift card and profusely apologized and explained my mental stage at that time.

    Also, I did make the preschool graduation. Sooooo embarrassing, can’t believe I just shared this:).

    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      Oh man, that would drive me nuts! I do not blame you for losing it. Very gracious of you to offer the gift card. πŸ™‚

  • October 30, 2013 Elaine A.

    I totally lost mine just last week, as a matter of fact. My OLDER boys were being… well… not good so I finally hollered at them to treat me with respect and each other too. It was not pretty. But you know what? They we ee really good the rest of the day. Go figure.

    It happens to the best of us. We are all human.
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    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      You know, sometimes my oldest does not listen until I raise my voice. So I totally get it.

  • October 30, 2013 Alison

    Hey, sh!t happens! It was your day to be the pigeon. Asshat was the statue. He deserved it. Actually he’s lucky that’s all you said to him. You should have served him his hind parts on a silver platter.
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    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      *snort* Thank you for the laugh!

  • October 30, 2013 Amanda Jillian

    Isn’t that how it always happens? One minute the kids are mad then they are fine. It’s no wonder that we lose our shit every so often.
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    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      Yup, they drive me crazy πŸ™‚

  • October 30, 2013 Leah

    You could have also named your post “This is motherhood.” Because it is. My kids still bring up a time I lost it bad a few years ago. They remember. But, they think it’s funny. Now. Not at the time (as I lost it on them!)

    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      I’m hoping my kids are too young to remember this! πŸ™‚

  • October 30, 2013 Christine

    What an asshat. I mean he’s an asshat for blocking your door but even more so when there was an open parking space behind you! Ummm, I lose my shit all the time – mostly at home and with my kids and husband (great, huh?). In public, I tend to fume and glare. I kind of have the old Chinese lady death stare down pretty good but that never feels as good as throwing a tantrum sometimes. Thank you for sharing this because you know what? I think that we all lose our shit sometimes.
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    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      I know that old Chinese lady stare, haha! I really try not to lose it with my husband and kids. When I do get mad, I shut down, rather than lose it like I did with that asshat. I guess all that pent up stuff had to go somewhere.

  • October 30, 2013 cyndy

    Oh, gosh. I have lost my shit many a time, almost always involving my kids (usually defending them from someone/something). If that quote you put up top is true…I’m a total loser. LOL I definitely tend to spout off first and then realize how stupid that was, later. Woops.

    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      You’re not a loser! It’s only human to lose our cool occasionally.

  • October 30, 2013 Stacey

    Honestly, you are my hero. There was an incident a few years ago that left me absolutely fuming, but I was too chicken to say anything to the jerkface who parked next to me. I had an infant who had exploded in the store. I had hauled him and three other children out to the parking lot, and I was parked WAY out in the parking lot. Next to no one. I’m in the middle of screaming kids and poop and this moron parks right next to me and waits impatiently for ME to move so they could get out of the car. There were like 20 empty spaces closer to the building. Some people just suck. Or they are oblivious. Or both.
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    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      They suck because they are oblivious. Bloody idiots!

  • October 31, 2013 jasi

    Every time my son tantrums hard in public, I feel the urge to level the Earth. But mostly I don’t.

    My bad moments are when my husband and I fuss (mostly due to hunger or being tired). We grew up together so it’s really, really difficult not to completely regress to teens, kicking each others feet and cussing each other out. “No, YOU’RE the jerk!” lol. We keep it to a minimum.

    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      Haha, that’s hilarious πŸ™‚

  • October 31, 2013 Kimberly

    You? You had that in your tiny little body?
    I had no idea that you were such a bad ass and I love it. How many assholes? Too many…bwhaha…I’m laughing with you. xxo
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    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      I AM badass πŸ˜‰

  • October 31, 2013 Sheryl Parbhoo

    Oh, have I been there! I lost my brother 2 weeks ago. He was only 45, and died suddenly from an undiagnosed heart defect. The day after the funeral, with all of my kids in the car, I was driving near my house, and trying to get into another lane. Still in tears from the day before, and in a dark fog, I put on my signal and waited for an opening. A jerky pizza guy in that lane sped up every time I tried to move. He had a smile on his face. I wanted to ram his car. When we came to a light, I started screaming obscenities at him, flipping him off, and honking my horn. He just kept smiling. My kids just sat there in stunned silence. When we got home, I cried so hard out of anger, grief, and embarrassment. My kids helped me out with a few chores without being asked, and let me compose myself. I guess the only bright side to the event is that my kids have seen that I am a real person with real feelings, and I hope they learn that everybody goes crazy sometimes.

    • October 31, 2013 Alison

      I’m so sorry for your loss, Sheryl. I don’t blame you for yelling at that moron, he was being an asshat on the road. I’m glad that your children saw that you needed help and space, and gave you that. That’s awesome.

  • November 2, 2013 adrienne

    Oh man! I was sweating while reading. Times like this make me feel so crazy. The sad thing is when I lose my temper it’s usually in front of my husband or kids, not a stranger. Thank God you ever have to see him again. LOL!
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    • November 2, 2013 Alison

      I know, right? Phew.

  • November 5, 2013 Marta

    Ok that is definitely losing your shit – no exaggeration at all. I think I lose my shit in my head all the time, but I don’t think I’ve ever actually screamed at someone (husband and children excluded) even when I have really really wanted to.

    And also that guy was a jackass. He should have parked in the empty spot to begin with!!!
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    • November 5, 2013 Alison

      It felt good! Though it probably wasn’t wise. πŸ™‚

  • November 6, 2013 Julia

    Oh Alison thank you for this. I lost my shit while potty training my son a month or so ago. It had been a long day and when my hubs came home both my son and I were in tears and I just lost it on him. We all have our moments.
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    • November 6, 2013 Alison

      Potty training is HARD. I’d be lying if I said I didn’t want to lose it and throw in the towel during this process (yes, we are STILL in the process 3 months in).

  • November 6, 2013 Cheryl

    I would have lost it in this situation, too. I hate to admit that the last time I lost it was tonight. When my husband loses it, I get on to him about not knowing if he’s dealing with someone crazy, etc., but I’m a total hypocrite. Thanks for the reminder that we all have our moments.
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    • November 6, 2013 Alison

      Totally okay to lose it once in a while!

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