Finding My Way Back To Myself

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Yoga quote

Palms on your mat, push your heels down. Ground yourself.

The past few weeks have been one of self-searching. Not so much soul, just self. Feeling slightly panicked, like I’ve waded too far into the ocean, and have nothing to hold on to, thinking I’m going to get pulled in and float away, helpless. Trying to keep my head above water, paddling, searching for something to pull me back.

Not writing makes me feel that way. Like I’m not anchored to something. It sounds a tad dramatic (it probably is), but for a writer to not write? No. A writer has to write. 

Deep breaths. Allow your body and mind to fall in with your breathing.

I’m no Anne Lamott, certainly. But writing is akin to breathing for me. I live for it, I love it, I can’t do without it, I just must. So I took a few deep breaths and just wrote. Stories that I dare not tell, tales that I can’t really see head or tail of yet, snippets of life, scattered thoughts. I wrote them down. It was a release. Even just to write a few sentences that were building up, waiting to be drawn out. Even if it was shit and don’t make sense (yet).

Stay with your pose. Focus on your breath. Just be.

I hold still as I write. Not physically (of course not). Mentally. I can’t allow myself to be lured away by the sparkly lights of Facebook, or the enticing voice of Pinterest. I let the words flow, I try to draw the picture in my mind quickly, before it fades away. 

Hands in prayer pose, to your heart. Feel your energy, center it. 

And I keep going. I write. I move more naturally now. The words are taking shape, moulding themselves into sentences. I feel alive. Also, relief. 

Move with purpose. Don’t rush it. 

The tendency is to hurry up. Write before I forget. Write before the words stop for some reason. I cannot rush. Moving too quickly would drive me to pressure myself unnecessarily. I want to love this process, not stress it. 

Do what you can, what your body tells you to. This is not a competition.

It is very easy for a writer (and blogger) to fall into a comparison trap. She writes better. Her imagery is so vivid. Writing comes so naturally to her. Etcetera etcetera. Unless there’s an unknown prize out there (a book deal? A TV show? A Pulitzer nomination?), it’s not a competition. Not for me anyway. Reading beautiful writing inspires me to write better

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I’ve been stuck for a while. Feeling despondent over many things. My body, my writing or lack thereof, my sense of self worth.

I pulled out my yoga mat a few days ago. I moved into familiar poses, feeling my way into them, glad I (and my body) hadn’t forgotten the asanas (poses). Post-practice, I lay on my mat in savasana (corpse pose, aptly named), feeling like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders and heart.

This. This is what I needed. To go back to what makes me happy. What makes me whole.

I found my way back to myself.

How do you find your way back to you? 

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Alison
I am a former PR and marketing professional turned work-at-home mother to two boys, born December 2009 and May 2012. After a 10-year career in various PR agencies, and of the world's biggest sports brands, I traded in launch parties, product launches, and world travel, for sippy cups, diapers, and breastfeeding. Aside from this blog, I am a contributing writer at Everyday Family. My writing has also been featured on Mamalode, Families In the Loop, andThe Huffington Post.
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  • July 3, 2013 Kiran

    Hmm. What to say? This post is beautiful. It’s fluid. I understand where you’re going. I feel in touch with where you have been.

    Writing is a vulnerable and brave thing to do. You do it beautifully, endearingly and without fear. I hope you never stop doing what you do because what you do is amazing and beautiful, as are you.

    I find my way back through my writing. Yoga. Putting down social media for a while and just being with my family. I just had a very non-zen, non-finding my way back moment and I am trying to center myself. And so, of course, I am finding my way back a little on your blog at this moment.

    Inspiration is everywhere, my friend.

    Love you.
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    • July 7, 2013 Alison

      I’m glad you found your way here. :)
      Also, not entirely fearless, at least not publicly. I did write a few things I can’t publish. Yet. But it got written.

  • July 3, 2013 Tamara

    No, you’re not Anne Lamott – which I like about you! I like your writing A LOT better. There, I said it. Let’s hope she’s not reading this. Hmm..what brings me back to me? It’s tough – there are triggers but the only true answer for me is time. I’ve had dry spells that lasted years and I’d really like to believe I’m immune to that tragedy again. And I think I am. What do I have this time? My blog. And what else? My blogging communities. So good.

    And I guess that’s really my answer!
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    • July 7, 2013 Alison

      Blogging has saved my life in so many ways.
      I doubt Anne Lamott will ever read my blog :) Though I did read her book on writing, Bird by Bird. It transformed my perspective (and me). If you haven’t read it, do.
      And, thank you for your kind words, Tamara!

  • July 3, 2013 Kerstin

    I have to agree with Tamara – I like your writing a lot more than Anne Lamott’s. I just recently read one of her books for the first time and even though it was alright (she does have her very unique style of writing), I was not enchanted or anything. But I do love coming back to your blog – it’s always changing and evolving and it seems to me like you are trying to as well.
    I think that’s what draws me in the most. Great writing and constant change.
    I’m intrigued to try yoga, because I have felt like living beside myself more than with myself for a while – and I feel like I need to snap out of it, but I can’t find the way out.
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    • July 7, 2013 Alison

      Kerstin, thank you for your kind words!
      I guess when you say ‘change’, you mean you see a different side of me. I haven’t changed, I’m just opening up more here. Which is scary yet exhilarating.
      Do try yoga. The best thing about it is, there are no prerequisites to yoga. You don’t need to be of a certain height, weight or ability. And all you need is a mat, an open mind and heart.

  • July 3, 2013 Shell

    There really are so many similarities in yoga and writing- this has me thinking. I know when I started yoga, I was constantly looking around, comparing myself to others(and usually finding myself lacking). But eventually, I learned it was just about how I was doing compared to me- and just how each day could be different but as long as it was what I could do for the day, it was all good. So true of writing… and the rest of our lives, too.
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    • July 7, 2013 Alison

      Yes! Yoga is not about an end goal (achieving an unassisted head stand for example), it’s about progress, physically, emotionally, and spiritually. I’m so glad you get it, Shell!

  • July 3, 2013 sarah

    Oh Alison, I can so relate. I’ve been in a similar place with my thoughts and feelings. It’s like I’m finding my voice in my writing all over again. I have to write too…even if it is sucky. If I don’t I’m not grounded either. I feel SO completely off. Writing is a release. Sharing it is pure joy. So much truth and beauty in this one. xo.
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    • July 7, 2013 Alison

      Thank you, Sarah. I’ve missed your voice. I’m glad you’ve found it again.

  • July 3, 2013 Mama and the City

    It’s so hard to think of you as not writing. I can almost read one post a day (if not in this site, as a contributor in another one). I tend to think writing comes so natural to you and that you are so great about it considering you have 2 kids to look after. You always inspire me and motivate me to keep doing better with my blogging.

    Keep doing the yoga chica!
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    • I step away from my computer and either go lift weights or meet up with my friends from the YMCA to work out. It’s hard not to compare yourself or feel like you should be selling something! I feel that way a LOT. I just try to take it day by day and be productive in some area of my life.

      It’s really hard to juggle so many different roles. Lately I was talking about how I had changed my eating habits. I’m an emotional eater. I’m really good at stuffing stress down with a cupcake or Starbucks coffee. I’ve got a race in 2 days so I don’t want to carry the extra weight in this heat.

      Since I have been eating clean, I’ve stripped away all my coping mechanisms. I’ve had to live with me for a week now and it’s been so unpleasant. I’m not sure what to do with it all. I know it’s there and when the race is over I can’t wait to get to a cupcake so I can put it all back inside the box. lol – Sounds crazy huh?

      Have you seen that site called NoMoreVoices.com? I’m a big Jon Acuff fan. That is a very interesting place to dump all the stuff inside your head. :) Hope it helps.
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      • July 7, 2013 Alison

        It’s not crazy, Pamela! We all have crutches. And sometimes, doing away with them feels frightening and unfamiliar. I do like Jon Acuff!

    • July 7, 2013 Alison

      You’re so kind to say so, my friend!
      Writing comes naturally yes, but not good writing. :)
      You keep blogging!

  • July 3, 2013 Maureen

    Your words, they are beautiful.
    Your words, they are from the heart.
    Therefore, my friend just keep on bleeding…keep on bleeding those words out. I absolutely love this part “Stories that I dare not tell, tales that I can’t really see head or tail of yet, snippets of life, scattered thoughts. I wrote them down. It was a release.” You captured the essences of writing right there.

    I have been struggling with your question lately but I am reaching in, dig deep to find the true me again. Through my writing, through the quiet times with my mother or with my son. Also through my workout.
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    • July 7, 2013 Alison

      I’m glad you’re finding your true self again, Maureen, because you are beautiful, and I hope you see that.

  • July 3, 2013 Nicole

    You are one of the beautiful writers who inspires us all to write better! When I need to find myself, I go for a run to clear my head or I shut down early and forget about work for a while. Playing with my girls and hanging out with my hubby never fails to put life back into perspective. If I can run, write, and enjoy family time, especially outdoors, that’s a perfect day and a perfect way to find myself!
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    • July 7, 2013 Alison

      Nicole, that sounds…. perfect. :)

  • July 3, 2013 Maggie S.

    This really resonates. I’ve been off since winter. And recently realized, not writing was killing me. Even it it was awful.

    And I just took my first yoga class Monday.
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    • July 7, 2013 Alison

      Did you enjoy your class? I hope you loved it.

  • Are we related? Because this is exactly how I feel/have been feeling lately. Overwhelmed at work, overwhelmed with blogs, thoughts, kids, family… lost.
    Some people go to a shrink, my husband runs marathons to clear his head, I write.
    And do yoga. But that has more to do with the dystonia.
    Loved this post.
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    • July 7, 2013 Alison

      Keep writing, keep yoga-ing, hon!
      As for the blogging, you know I’m here to help!

  • July 3, 2013 tracy

    I love you and wish I could reach across the miles, hug you tights, and look you right into your beautiful eyes and say “you are everything and everything you do is beautiful.” Love you. xo
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    • July 7, 2013 Alison

      Aw, Tracy. I love you too. Hard. xoxo

  • July 3, 2013 Kim

    Writing helps me come back to myself, too – even if it is just a snippet or two that no one else will ever see. Sharing an afternoon with my family or a great conversation also help me. And recently, I discovered that running is another way – I like the way my thoughts come and go as I focus on breathing and one foot in front of the other.
    Glad you have found your way back to you!
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    • July 7, 2013 Alison

      I’m glad you’ve found running, Kim!!

  • July 3, 2013 Kathy Radigan

    Alison I always feel calmer the minute I start to read your words. I love the comparison between writing and yoga. Now that I think about it writing is really one of the few times I am focused on me, what I’m thinking, what I care about. I have been working on finding my way back to me for a while now, sometimes I feel as if I’m getting there, other times I feel lost in the shuffle of my life. I look forward to reading more about your journey back to you!

    • July 7, 2013 Alison

      Thank you, Kathy, you’re always so supportive. I hope you find your way back to you too.

  • July 3, 2013 JDaniel4's Mom

    This post flows just like yoga moves do in class. I found yoga to be challenging and restful.
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    • July 7, 2013 Alison

      Thank you. Yoga is definitely both challenging and restful.

  • July 3, 2013 Onica {MommyFactor}

    Yoga is a great focusing system. Glad you found yourself again. I’m in the process of doing the same
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    • July 7, 2013 Alison

      Good luck to you, Onica!

  • July 3, 2013 Tricia

    Love this. Your journey back to you is so inspiring. Writing does take me back to me, but not all the way there. I’m searching still for what will take me the rest of the way home.
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    • July 7, 2013 Alison

      I hope you find what you’re looking for, Tricia. xo

  • July 3, 2013 KalleyC

    Whenever I am unable to write, I feel out of it. Just crazy.

    My mood goes downhill, and I am unable to just be. When I get like this, sometimes dramatic changes is what I need, or in many cases, it’s just getting back to myself (like you just did). Sometimes I pick up a book. Or other times I remind myself why I write in the first place. It’s a part of me. It’s who I am. It’s who I see myself.

    These days, it’s so hard to fall into the comparison trap. See what everyone is doing out there, and wonder, “Shouldn’t I be doing the same?” I went through a phase like that, and I had to quickly squash it. It wasn’t me. It didn’t feel authentic, it was drying me up.

    I honestly never read Anne Lamott (although now I am very curious), but I do like your writing style. It’s authentic. It’s like sitting down with you and my cup of tea and just having a conversation. No sales, no pitches, just you. Thank you.
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    • July 7, 2013 Alison

      Kalley, that is such a beautiful thing to say, that’s exactly how I want my readers to feel, like we’re having a conversation. Thank you.

      And, I always keep this quote in mind: Comparison is the thief of joy.

  • July 3, 2013 AlwaysARedhead

    Gardening. It always helps calm me.
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    • July 7, 2013 Alison

      It’s great you have something that calms you!

  • July 3, 2013 Julia\'s Math

    Sometimes corpse posies the hardest… It forces one to deal with the “inner poses” instead of the physical ones. Glad you’re feeling better. And kudos for knowing what you need to do to make that happen.
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    • July 7, 2013 Alison

      Savasan is actually the most important pose in yoga. The entire practice would be void if one didn’t do that pose. So yes, that IS the hardest pose.

  • July 3, 2013 Leighann

    There are so many times that I need to centre myself and this sounds like a lovely way to do it. This was just wonderful Alison.
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    • July 7, 2013 Alison

      Thank you so much, Leighann.

  • July 3, 2013 FitBritt

    Beautiful Alison, just beautiful. I like how you said “The tendency is to hurry up.” I feel the same way. Sometimes it’s because my brain seems to be working faster than the words and I can’t get it down fast enough. Sometimes I just want to check another thing off the list. Sometimes I am afraid the words will escape me if I don’t get them down. Great post!
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    • July 7, 2013 Alison

      Thank you, so much. Hurrying up is easier to do than slowing down, isn’t it? Yoga does so much for me, helping me get to an even pace.

  • July 3, 2013 Christine

    Currently trying to figure that out. This post sure helps a lot though. Thank you.
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    • July 7, 2013 Alison

      I hope you do figure it out! :)

  • July 3, 2013 thekitchwitch

    I’m a failure at yoga. I’ve tried, honest. I cannot balance to save my life (which is why I can’t ride a bicycle. Ahem.) Glad you found your way back to you.
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    • July 7, 2013 Alison

      There is no fail in yoga, only try. :)

  • July 4, 2013 Ashley

    You know, it can be just so darn hard to find time for yourself. There’s always diapers to be changed, kids to be fed, work to be done. And writing? Something I began with and always enjoyed? Gets pushed so far back to the back burner that when I finally sit down to write I hardly know where to begin.

    I think it’s amazing that you found a way to rejuvenate and inspire yourself again. This is such inspiration that when you take a moment and reflect on yourself, that that’s what truly matters. Not everyone else. xo.
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    • July 7, 2013 Alison

      Ashley, you do so much, I don’t know how you stay sane and still do it all :)
      And thank you for you sweet words. xo

  • July 4, 2013 Carolyn Y

    Ah Yoga, I must get back to it. Whenever I do practice, I feel more centered, more relaxed.
    I love how this post flowed.
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    • July 7, 2013 Alison

      Thank you, Carolyn!
      After I told myself numerous times to just get back to yoga and finally did, I was glad I did. It felt just right. I hope you do too.

  • July 4, 2013 Natalie

    I’m not actually a writer…but I get this. With the 2 kids and being a SAHM I was definitely less myself. But recently with my youngest being a little older…and the fact I’ve been able to do things “just me” like yoga or meeting a friend I feel more like myself now.
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    • July 7, 2013 Alison

      You ARE a writer! You write, don’t you? :)

  • July 4, 2013 Ilene

    I loved reading this so much, my fellow writer and yogi. I find the way back to myself the same way you do. xo
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    • July 7, 2013 Alison

      I know you can relate 100%!

  • July 4, 2013 Rivki Silver

    Oh boy, do I need to get back into doing yoga! I love what it brings to my life, but I just haven’t prioritized it yet. To find my way back to myself I pare down. I say no to outside engagements. I say yes to making more time for my spiritual practices. I journal, even if it’s just five sentences. I make a to-do list, and know that I won’t complete it. Here’s to us, to finding our center and staying there. :)
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    • July 7, 2013 Alison

      Your back-to-yourself-practices are awesome!

  • July 4, 2013 Alexandra

    Unplugging is the best thing I do for myself. Being with my kids and taking care of them. Being far away from any device that pulls me out of moments with them. They are my yoga. xo So happy you found what works for you, Alison, the young years are so demanding. Mine are 16, 18, and 11 and the world of difference when they can take care of themselves cannot be understated… xo
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    • July 7, 2013 Alison

      You always see the story behind the story, Alexandra. Love you. Hard. xo

  • July 4, 2013 Honeybee

    Beautiful piece! I’m a Christian. Meditation on Bible not just help me connect with God, but does help me to focus and calms my spirit.
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    • July 7, 2013 Alison

      I’m glad you have something to help you feel centered!

  • July 4, 2013 Lady Jennie

    This draws a perfect parallel between yoga and writing. I am too rushed – I can’t force myself to stop that way. When I write, I’m rushed. If it weren’t for the once-a-week yoga class, I would be too rushed to do yoga because I wouldn’t stop to do it.

    I need to do that – to stop and breathe.
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    • July 7, 2013 Alison

      Stop and breathe – yes. That applies to every facet of life.

  • July 5, 2013 Jin Ai

    Spending time with God makes all the difference for me. Also ironically, unplugging and blogging – still trying to figure out how to do both! The years with little ones are so demanding. I’m glad you’re finding your way, Alison. Keep those beautiful posts coming.
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    • July 7, 2013 Alison

      The early years are tough, aren’t they? But also very rewarding. And thank you.

  • July 5, 2013 Mariann

    I’m not sure if this post was meant to come across as advice, but that’s exactly what I took from it. This is the BEST advice that I’ve ever read concerning making my way back to me. I haven’t written in more than a month and I’ve been so concerned with getting back to it. I feel like it’s been sucked completely out of me and just when I was feeling hopeless- I read this post.
    This is definitely a gem that I’ll keep close to my heart and will refer back to often, until I tackle this hurdle.
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    • July 7, 2013 Alison

      Mariann, it means so much to me that this resonated with you, and it came at the right time for you. I hope you find your way back to writing soon.

  • July 5, 2013 Stevie

    Sigh, I drunk up every bit of this, and it was delicious. Somehow they are connected aren’t they, reading, writing, yoga – one big cycle. I love what you wrote, “Reading beautiful writing inspires me to write better.” Sometimes I just need to read beautiful words. Sometimes I need to write. Sometimes I need my yoga mat.
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  • July 5, 2013 Christine

    You know that I love this post Alison. I love your writing and I’m so glad that you write and share so much with us. Lately, it’s been yoga that brings me back to me. There’s something about being on the mat and moving and breathing that makes me focus on the moment right then and there and forget about all the other stuff. Even if it’s 10 minutes or an hour and a half practice, that’s when I can shed all the other crap. Not surprisingly, my practice often reflects the other stuff that’s going on in my life.
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    • July 7, 2013 Alison

      You are one of the reasons I went back to my mat. Just seeing your pictures of you in asanas, reading about how you practice, all so inspiring. So, thank YOU.

  • July 5, 2013 Angela

    “The tendency is to hurry up.” I have been doing that in everything lately – sleeping, eating, working out, writing, thinking…even in my yoga practice. I’m trying to find my way back by committing to yoga every day this month. It’s my biggest connection to me. Thanks for the reinforcement!
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    • July 7, 2013 Alison

      That is a lovely commitment, Angela. I have no doubt you can stick to it. Namaste.

  • July 5, 2013 Laura

    Stopping by from Christine’s- beautiful post! For me, it’s running- the one constant when life is swirling around me, and it’s about to get even crazier as we start our cross country move next week!
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    • July 7, 2013 Alison

      Ooh, good luck with the move, that’s epic!
      Thank you for stopping by.

  • July 5, 2013 Arnebya

    Yoga does exactly what I need it to do. So why, then, is it so difficult for me to do it regularly? I don’t know. But I do know that when I practice, I remember how I like to feel. I remember the openness, the clarity, the patience, the ache. Even the ache feels good because it’s a reminder that I am still alive, still able, and it’s showing me that I need to move my body, be good to myself in this way more often. Writing reminds me to be good to me when I get that lost feeling, but yoga? Yoga does something entirely different. And I need to go back to my mat.
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    • July 8, 2013 Alison

      Oh yes, the ache afterwards. It’s actually rather glorious.
      I hope you do go back to your mat. It’s just so awesome.

  • July 5, 2013 keely

    I love that about yoga. And Pilates. And sometimes (most times), a good ol’ fashioned nap. :)
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    • July 8, 2013 Alison

      Oh yes, the reenergizing power of naps!

  • July 6, 2013 Leigh Ann

    What’s been a real struggle for me lately is writing and waiting. I find that when I hit publish immediately, I later think of something else i need to say, or something that I did say that doesn’t come across quite right. I’ve had to learn to sit on things, unless they are fun, dumb, conversational posts.

    Also, when I did yoga for the first time and the guy on the video was telling me to “Clear my mind,” all I could think about was “I am SO blogging this.” Not really a clear mind, huh? :)
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    • July 8, 2013 Alison

      Hah! Too funny. Clearing one’s mind is actually really hard. I usually end up thinking about how I’m supposed to clear my mind. Which is not clearing anything at all.

  • July 6, 2013 Jennifer

    I love this. Like really, really love it.
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    • July 8, 2013 Alison

      Thank you, so very much.

  • July 6, 2013 angela

    I love this, the way you incorporated the movements of your practice into your thoughts.

    (I also love the toes matching the yoga mat ;) )

    • July 8, 2013 Alison

      The toes was a complete coincidence! A happy one. :)

  • July 7, 2013 Robyn

    This is a gorgeous post, and an excellent question! I have been asking this a lot lately. I decided yesterday to try walking meditation. I think the answer for me is in mindful movement – walking and yoga included.
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    • July 8, 2013 Alison

      I love that, mindful movement.

  • July 7, 2013 My Inner Chick

    Thought Provoking Layers of light.

    You may not be Annie Lamott…because you are Alison Lee… & you are utterly fabulously brilliant. Xx
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    • July 8, 2013 Alison

      Love “thought provoking layers of light”! So beautiful. Just like you. xo

  • July 7, 2013 Katie

    Whenever I “can’t” write it’s because I’ve got a clog. A writing clog. A blog clog. whatever. It’s never that I run out of things TO say, it’s that I run out of things I CAN say. I’ve tried to just not write, but what I find works better is to just not PUBLISH. I have a ton of stuff in draft that may never see the publish button. Or maybe it will find a way into something else or…who knows.

    But I have to “write it out”.

    I have to. Just like I have to breath.
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    • July 8, 2013 Alison

      Writing it out – yes! I need to do that more. Truly. Today, I started 4 drafts. All vague ideas. Some, just one sentence. But it’s out. Hopefully, I can move beyond just a draft.

  • July 7, 2013 Jessica

    I am just beginning my blogging journey and I so agree with you about the comparing. It’s so humbling being surrounded by amazing writers who just make it look so, so, so, so easy. I read an amazing post and I think, “Man. It just doesn’t come that easily for me.” I forget that the writer didn’t just exhale poetry. So I am not sure yet how I center myself…I think I’m finding my way. I found my voice awhile back, but I am not accustomed to having my writing be read by such a large audienced so often–and bloggers are the most wondeful people because they actually WILL read what you post online.

    So far, I center myself by forcing myself to close windows on the computer. No more Facebook. No more Twitter. No more email. (Ironically, all those things seem to make blogging harder. They are brain clutter. And they encourage comparing, competing, even when you’re trying to support other bloggers. Why is that?!) Just me and the blinking cursor. I need my girls to be in bed, snoozing soundly. I need my husband to be occupied by a TV show. I need tranquility. And I need a snack. The snack is a key ingredient.

    Lovely post. Thanks for sharing.
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    • July 8, 2013 Alison

      I have to write in solitude and silence too!
      With a snack. Of course.
      Thanks for reading, Jessica!

  • July 8, 2013 Robin

    Me too. Same way.

    I see you in this. And it makes me happy.
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    • July 9, 2013 Alison

      Thank you. Truly.

  • July 9, 2013 Mama Melch

    Yoga definitely helps me find myself again, but it is running that really makes me feel wholly healed. I always try to forget that I have an athletic build until it starts to look more frumpy and less sculpted.
    Please keep writing your beautiful words. You inspire me as well.
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    • July 9, 2013 Alison

      Thank you for your kind words! And keep running!

  • July 9, 2013 Elaine A.

    I hope I can find some of this in the next few months. I’ve been working on it too. I think yoga and centering yourself is certainly a way to do so. I need to incorporate more of that into my life as well. I’m so glad for you, Alison. We all need that time in our busy, stressful lives. xo
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    • July 9, 2013 Alison

      Do it, Elaine! It’s truly awesome. And thank you.

  • July 9, 2013 Alexa (katbiggie)

    I’ve been thinking a lot about starting yoga lately. I’ve read so much about the amazing effects on the body, mind, spirit. But it always surprises me how much it hurts my incredibly inflexible body. I guess there is only one way to get flexible, right? I think that yoga would be a great way to ground myself. I’m glad you’re back!
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    • July 9, 2013 Alison

      Alexa, don’t think. Just do. Find a good class and teacher, and just start. You’ll be amazed how much your body can do. Go with a open heart and mind. :)

  • July 12, 2013 Jessica

    I find that when I’m in my yoga class my mind fills with all sorts of ideas I want to write about. Of course I can’t do it right then but I usually am able to scribble them out before the thoughts leave my mind.
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    • July 12, 2013 Alison

      Yoga is good for blogging :)

  • July 12, 2013 Julia

    Oh, I so get this. You are an amazing writer. Yes, you. And I’m so glad you are finding your way to back to yourself. xo
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    • July 12, 2013 Alison

      Julia, thank you SO much for you sweet words. xo

  • July 12, 2013 Andrea

    Everything about this post resonates with me. I always feel in a slight panic, drowning under the weight of tasks and my own procrastination tools (Facebook, Twitter for me). Even yoga has taken a backseat to the demands. But when I write, I focus. And somehow everything becomes clearer. Thank you!
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    • July 13, 2013 Alison

      I’m glad writing refocuses you, Andrea!

  • July 15, 2013 RJ

    This was Great! Alison. The feelings and thoughts you described as far as writing very much mirror the way I feel quite frequently. I find it difficult not to compare myself. I struggle with finding my own style and writing the stories I want to write. Running, yoga, getting away from the computer, and just trying “to be” help me. Thank you for your inspiration.

    • July 15, 2013 Alison

      Being you is all you need to be. :)

  • July 15, 2013 Laura

    When I told Dan I had to give up something because I was becoming overwhelmed with life, I said “I could give up blogging, but it would make a difference because I’d still have to write. It is the only way I know how to live.”

    I was thinking to myself recently that your writing has blossomed since the first time I stepped onto your blog. You seem to have found your style and you are shaping your words so beautifully. I am proud of you and in awe of you. I am glad you found your way back to writing. Love this and love you!
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    • July 15, 2013 Alison

      You’re a writer, so of course you have to keep writing!!

      And thank you. Truly.

  • July 22, 2013 Tonya

    I love this!! I also am a big fan of yoga and have practiced on and off for 13 years. There truly is nothing else on earth like it. It has saved me in so many ways. Beautiful post.
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    • July 23, 2013 Alison

      Thank you, fellow yogi! xo

  • July 24, 2013 Mrs. Pancakes

    i so need to get back to yoga and i love this post because it is so true how yoga can really help you ti find your way back. love your log by the way!

    • July 24, 2013 Alison

      Do get back to it, it’s such a lifesaver.
      And thank you!

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